Vol. 1

Today I would like to express my deepest gratitude to all of you for the first time after four and half years since launching my official website.

Thank you for visiting here.


Recently I feel something in me has woken up suddenly from sleep.
That is the reason why I am sending this message to you today after long silence.

It’s almost 20 years since I dove into this world of music.
I am filled with satisfaction that I have been playing saxophone in really a great circumstance.
At the same time, I am overwhelmed with strong gratitude toward all the people I’ve met until now.

In the past, I thought myself as a free and easy kind of guy.
But actually, I was not like that unexpectedly.

About two years ago, I found myself loosing control of my own body
I visited doctors again and again, but that condition of my body was getting worse and worse without identifying any particular cause.

Later, I learned I was suffering from “Panic Disorder” induced by stress.

This illness in which brain signal can not be sent correctly to the body, tortured me more harshly than I expected.
In my case it came up as depression.

Even in the medical world, “Panic Disorder” is still new and it has a lot of questions dissolved. But fortunately I met a doctor who knows well about analysis of this illness.

Asked by the doctor, ”Do you have any worries now?” I just thought, “Maybe, maybe not”.
But after a series of clinical examination, doctor told me “You probably have developed depression derived from Panic Disorder…”

I answered to the doctor, “I must be the last person who suffers from depression.”
Then doctor told me, “It’s typical that a depressed patient can not admit himself as depression. Take days off for 6 months or a year.”

I could not recognize the illness at first, but shortly after that I totally lost control of my body falling into complete depressive condition.

Due to the illness, I caused so much trouble to so many people and gave a heavy burden on my family. But thanks to all those people’s help, I succeeded in returning to the stage only after 2 months.

As a matter of fact, the doctor never allowed me to return to work at this point.

To nobody’s surprise, I have to reduce the amount of work without enough physical strength.

I have made steady efforts to lead an organized life in order to recover as soon as possible. After having many failures, from the beginning of this year, I finally started feeling that those efforts are bearing fruit.

At present, I am 37 years old.

I realize I am at the age of my mentors of when I was a teenager diving into the world of music knowing nothing. They taught me everything in a strict but warm and kind manner.

So, I decided to make my second debut, making a new start with talented young musicians.

I decided to live my life in my true colors throwing off my unbrave self.


This is a group filled with own thoughts.

During 10 years career of “JUN USUBA JAZZ ROOTS”, I released 2 albums.

I always want to express myself in a straightforward way.

Sorry to be late to express my gratitude to all of you.

Thank you for so much your support.

April 8th, 2006

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